banzaisistaz

dear journal,

i am heartless,unthoughtful,hard-headed,unreasonable, and anything negative you can think off.i suck at a lot of things.i suck at school,i suck at maths,i suck at science,i suck at combine humanities and i even suck at malay.i suck at being myself.i hate myself.im not fit to be a boyfriend.now i know why ive always been dumped.

uh who cares.

here's an update:
IM BUSY WITH SCHOOL AND WORK.

birthday last friday.spent the day before my birthday with tiniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.i forgot what happen beofre i met her but ya.she was fasting therefore headed for the kedai makan and she ate.fared boncit pun ade there and as a buncit man would eat,he odered like 5 dishes for 2 person,he and his gf.we were beside them thanks fared for the leftovers.hahaha.

after which went to SMU cus tini's friends are all there played a round of monopoly at mr t for tetek.milo dinosaur very nice cus got kuku bird crunch on top of the milo powder.hmm....kuku bird crunch.i think i want to buy some honeystars this week.anyway,after that walked towards the bus stop towards home but stopped for tini had something.something which made me speechless(i bet she was damn disappointed with my reactions) but yeah,something.after a long treasure hunt(i felt dumb),i found a piece of paper which she slit in my notebook.it was a receipt.she had brought me a guitar fellas!

http://pics.livejournal.com/banzaisistaz/pic/0007ya3y/s320x240

yey i so happy.thanks sayang.

and now i have to be back to work.sucks actually.mmm.

a bit of this always cheer me up!

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-4302551081848456100&q=looney+tunes&total=2497&start=0&num=10&so=0&type=search&plindex=9

this holidays have been erm,unpredictable and so so so.got a job at ayam penyet ria here at katong area and i quit after two days.please no,im not a quiter its their management.its so lame and bad.they expect a newbie to know how to make drinks and the recipes and stuffs.everything you should know.well,goodbye penyets.

had chalet over mast monday.was held by helena for lasalle foundation kids and it was nice cause the area where the chalet was nice.i love the changi chalets.they are secluded unlike the other chalets you can find here in Singapore.tini was able to accompany me for the night before we went home the next morning.the chalet was held for 3 days but we went ome early.

and now,im taking my time looking for jobs as i dont want to rush.i dont want to have regret that i didnt took sometime off to rest after the school ended.i too want to enjoy man.when school reopens in august,who knows i might not have any time for anything else so yeah.

past few days and nights have been spent sleeping late watching arts central anime,HBO,soccer matches and old school mtv videos.here's one for you guys;

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<br>yeah so thats paticurly about it.i love tini.

why?why?why?
the fire is burning.
why put more coal in it?
how you want me to be?

im human.

i've made a mistake,a broken promise i made to myself.i feel so ashamed.i feel so......UGH.what's wrong with me.what's wrong?what's wrong?what's wrong?

i dont like crying.i blame it on myself.just one thing,im not "them".im not the "majority".
it will never happen again,promise.

i feel like shit.
dinky

hello.
critique week this week in school and im stressed.things to be done and at the same time i have to think of how am i gonna present my work.some more there's 3D lesson and the structure isn't completed thanks to very kind team members who have not been attending school.well what the heck.

tomorrow's valentines.yes i know but people should stop asking how am i gonna celebrate.im not gonna celebrate it.im not a christian.love is a daily basis kinda thing.ya so maybe spending time with thunder girl tomorrow.watch movie?

thunder girl brought me 2 dopeeeeeest necklaces ever.i love it so very much.now im opening a new gang.recruitment starts tomorrow.

dont update livejournal just for the sake of updating dinky.


dinky

i love school.i love my friends.i love myself.i love everyday.i love you.

so now im a pervert,retard,drug addict................and the list goes on.everyday im a different person.

dinky

i cant help it.its just something about them that i just dislike about.i hate being around them,i hate their language,i hate the way they look,i hate the way they try to be "fierce",basically i hate reps.

i can't stand them at all.never bring me near a rep please.ill get upset eventhough i wont show it.i dont know why im posting something like this but,i have to let it out.this is serious.the after effects can be hazardous.i hate reps.

dinky